the fray between roots and wings

and the beat goes on…
06/03/2009, 1:03 am
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Somehow I know it’s all going to be okay. Maybe this is the whole, “Peace that surpasses understanding” thing, but I really feel like everything is going to be fine. I’ve been in Bible college for about a year now and I’m almost finished with the first level in the Assembly of God credentialing process. Before too long I’ll be going in for interviews, preparing for final exams, and cramming the 16 fundamental truths. Basically what all of it means is now I can get a job at a church.

But what if that doesn’t work out? What if no one hires me? What if I spend the rest of my life simply making pizzas?

It’s okay.

Preparing for this process, I have been so stressed it has affected every single area of my life. I’ve been grouchy at work, distant to my family, lazy in school, non-committed in church, and cold to Jesus. The very process that was intended to prepare me for ministry, was tearing me apart. Why? Because of the attitude, or perception, I was walking in.

But the beat goes on. And after a week of running on a cocktail of pure adrenaline and stress, I broke. In that point of exhaustion, I’m starting to find the meaning of peace that I can’t comprehend. It’s all going to be okay.


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