the fray between roots and wings

I need to sleep.
06/16/2009, 5:26 am
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Why am I so tired? I am at the point of absolute
exhaustion, and I really don't understand it.
Sure I've been busy lately, who hasn't? Our very culture
demands us to be "busy." But I'm young, I'm only 21.
I shouldn't need sleep, just pass me another
energy drink. 🙂 Oh man, I'm going to bed.
Maybe the answer will come to me in my sleep.

and the beat goes on…
06/03/2009, 1:03 am
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Somehow I know it’s all going to be okay. Maybe this is the whole, “Peace that surpasses understanding” thing, but I really feel like everything is going to be fine. I’ve been in Bible college for about a year now and I’m almost finished with the first level in the Assembly of God credentialing process. Before too long I’ll be going in for interviews, preparing for final exams, and cramming the 16 fundamental truths. Basically what all of it means is now I can get a job at a church.

But what if that doesn’t work out? What if no one hires me? What if I spend the rest of my life simply making pizzas?

It’s okay.

Preparing for this process, I have been so stressed it has affected every single area of my life. I’ve been grouchy at work, distant to my family, lazy in school, non-committed in church, and cold to Jesus. The very process that was intended to prepare me for ministry, was tearing me apart. Why? Because of the attitude, or perception, I was walking in.

But the beat goes on. And after a week of running on a cocktail of pure adrenaline and stress, I broke. In that point of exhaustion, I’m starting to find the meaning of peace that I can’t comprehend. It’s all going to be okay.

things Christians like #2
04/15/2009, 8:06 pm
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Hello, welcome to our church! I am the Assistant District 
Regional Superintendent Intern Director of the Inner 
Workings of My Interpersonal Fellowship to Brothers 
and Sisters, otherwise known as Neighbors.

It's annoying.

Oh, that we would have the same mindset as the
disciple John, who refused to refer to himself by his own name!
Instead his entire identity was wrapped up in one phrase,
"the one whom Jesus loved."

I'm surprised we don't pass out name
tags with the bulletins as people enter church!

Preceptions and Truth
04/15/2009, 7:34 pm
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  Have you ever heard, “Preception is true to those who perceive it.” If that is true, which I believe it is, the question stands:

 “What preceptions am I living with?”


  But if it really is a preception and not actual truth, how can I see the difference? Because if I am believing it to be true, and it really isn’t true, however I have convinced myself it is true, how do I know the difference?

   For instance, last April we had a special speaker at my church. He was from Europe and was a missionary to America. To put it in a nutshell, the services were awesome. At one point in the middle of all of it, I was up at the altar praying. And it was one of those amazing times when everything is so real, and God is so present you can almost touch Him. And while I was praying, I felt God was telling me something very specific. I have only told 1 person what that was. However in the weeks and months that followed, the message was confirmed to me several times through 3 different people, none of them knowing it. Coincidence? I think not.

   But that was a year ago. And as of today, I have yet to see it fulfilled.

   So this is where I find myself. Was it truth, or a preception? Did I really hear God? Did I twist the message somehow? Was I looking at the “confirmations” in a desperate attempt for fulfillment? Or am I just doubting what I know to be true? What is truth? What is preception? What am I suppose to do?

things Christians like #1
02/12/2009, 8:18 am
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As I have said, sometimes I get frustrated with the church and Christians in general. We are so predictable! In fact, we have created our own little culture so we can survive in our own little religious bubble away from the rest of the world and all the dirty little things we don’t want to be around. Which is ironic considering Jesus was a friend of sinners, was often found eating with them, and some of His best friends included dirty fishermen, adulterers, lepers, and the risen dead. My, how far we’ve come!

So I’d like to do a random series of posts highlighting some key elements in our Christian culture which have little or no relevance to faith, hope, and love.

First, Christians like pictures of poor, dirty children.


As creepy as that my sound, it makes us feel good to see these heart-wrenching pictures and drop a dollar in the offering plate so someone else can travel around the world and buy these street kids a pair of shoes.


I completely support missions. But I don’t support lazy people who are satisfied on the good feeling of sending in a few bucks. Missions are meant to be life-changing both to the people who receive and the people who go.

Can you imagine what the church would look like if it became mandatory for each member to make at least one mission trip in their lifetime to really experience the dirt and filth and pain people live with everyday. Can you imagine what the attitude of the church would be if we really wept with those who weep and rejoice with those who rejoice, including the other side of the world?


good question
02/12/2009, 7:48 am
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so where are you??